Day 8: I am thankful for:

Today I wanna talk about what I am truly thankful for, and that is the cross of Jesus. Two and half years ago in the middle of May 2011, I felt flat on my face questioning everything I believed to be true. I was in the middle of a desperate spot. I had been told a few days earlier that I could have stage 4 lung cancer and wouldn't have much longer to live, plus my dad had just been diagnosed with prostate cancer. The following week I would have a biopsy of my lungs. I was uncertain about a lot of things. I threw my hands up and said enough is enough. I was weeping as I was praying and part of me walked away from my Savior. I didn't know what to do, what to believe, and who to believe in. I remember I finally came to a place in myself where I said "Lord if it is your will for me to live or die, may your name be glorified above everything else."

I found out I have sarcoidosis. An auto immune disease, now i am in remission. I have slowly been rebuilding my walk with Christ. I prefer it to be slow. I really wanted to figure out who Jesus really is. Not what the church or people say He is, but what the Bible says he is. I wanted to heal from my past. In my life I have been through some very dark and ugly valleys...at times it felt like I walked through hell itself. I have been through high of highs and just stayed on an even plain. The painful parts is what I needed to break free from. Through that I realized the joy of the cross. I would lay down each hurt, burden, sin or whatever it was that needed to freed my soul. At the cross there is freedom, joy, peace, love. The God of the universe loves me unconditionally. He has held true to His word " He will never leave me or forsake me." Healing is a lot harder then I thought. It isn't a place you arrive it is a journey you are continually on...If you are hurting and finding yourself seeking something? No matter how hard you try and fill the void with other things or people you will continue to feel empty....I came across this video and it sums up exactly what I am thankful for today. I pray that you will come and fall at the cross of Jesus and be set free! No one is too far gone, or sinned so bad, or failed too bad to stop the love God. Please take the time and watch this wonderful video!