I have been really examining my life lately. Somethings I really don't understand why I have to go through them.
In October 2010 I walked out of my job. There were many reason for that, but I felt that when the Lord told me to walk out there was something more then the issues hand. I got my answer 7 months later. On May 9, 2011 My dad told me that he was diagnosed with Prostate cancer. Then 10 days later I went into the emergency room because of pain in my side and I couldn't really breathe. After 4 hours of testing they told me that I tumors covering my lungs and I need to get immediate help. I met the most wonderful cancer doctor, Dr. Tiffany. She told me if these were cancerous tumors then I would be in stage 4 of lung cancer. That was a lot to swallow. We prayed for a miracle and alerted all our friends, family, and church to pray for a miracle. She was so encouraging to me. She set me up for all the tests that needed to be done. On Memorial day weekend Dr. Tiffany called and left a message telling me that I don't have lung cancer. She told me that she was so thankful that I would not be her patient any more. She set me up with a lung doctor. I have since found out that I have a serious lung disease call Sarcoidosis. I have severe airway and lung tissue damage. To combat and hopefully heal this they have put me on a huge dose of steroids. Thankfully this Saturday August 12 will be the final day I am on them. Then I go back for testing again to see if Sarcoidois is gone. I know it will be, I have faith. I have seen one miracle of not having cancer, now I am waiting for the other. Restoration of my lungs. Going through all this the past 3 almost 4 months has hit us to our core. Probably the hardest thing we have had to walk through as a family.
It dawned on me that this is the reason the Lord said walk out. I was a school librarian. If I would have had the same attack that that led me to the emergency room, during school hours I would have collapsed with a classroom full of kids, I would not have been able to finish the school year due to testing and not being able to breath well at all. I could not stand for very long periods of time. So as we walk through life and wonder why the Lord is doing what he is doing maybe we just need to sit down and see that there may be a bigger picture that we don't see yet. I am still waiting to see the other half of this picture. Why did we have to go through all this health stuff? I am sure I will be amazed at what the Lord has planned. I am thankful my steps are directed by a higher power. As for my dad, we just got word that his levels are lower then when he was tested in May. He is doing wishful waiting and seeing what the cancer does. I know his miracle of healing is coming!
