Call Me a Duck

My Faith Demands a Voice

Before I start this blog I need to say one thing. This blog was typed by my fingers, but breathed through my fingers by the Holy Spirit. I can already hear the critics, but I don’t care. I am being obedient to my Heavenly Father. I have nothing to be ashamed about nor am afraid to share what he laid on my heart.

I feel kind of like Dr. Martin Luther King when I say “I have a dream.” I believe his dream for equality was birthed in him by God, just like the dream for my family and our ministry. God birthed a HUGE dream that started out very simple, because that is where my faith was at that time and has exploded into something that in this world is impossible. In 2008 while we were living way out in the boone docs, Joe and I were on the internet looking at house plans and get ideas for when we want to build our dream house. We put in the requirements we were looking for, and nothing set in and looked like home. The Lord said go bigger, we were already looking at 2,500sq ft. We did and that is when we found the perfect home for us. That was that, or so we thought. I didn’t reflect much on it until this year, I knew it was mine but didn’t know what my Lord had in mind. In early 2009 we were faced with the challenge of moving again. We found a house we loved in town and set out to purchase it. I had the faith that it was ours, and then the big NO came from the lenders. I feel like that was a test to see how far my faith could be stretched. I think that was a stepping stone to build off of. I remember balling my eyes out to our realtor and she said something that has stuck with. This is what I heard: “Christina it is ok to move one more time into a rental. God has bigger plans for you and he has something better for you and this is not it.” So I sucked it up and moved again for the 8^th time in 10 years. The Lord showed us where to rent in town. That is when this whole dream exploded. The Lord told me in the spring of that year that our address would on certain road on the right hand side as you are heading to this city, and the first two numbers of your address will be 11. I told Joe and he said “Don’t put God in a box and really pray it out.” I did just that. Then around that same time he told me that we would be in our house when my son was 11. My faith grew a bit more. In 2010 things just exploded like firecrackers. Amongst the joy of hearing what the Lord had planned for us, was a lot of hard work. I had to surrender my whole self to the Lord and get rid of the baggage that was holding me back from going forward in that dream. As I began to hunker down and work on issues He was faithful in giving more glimpses into what He had planned. In the early spring as I was taking two little girls home, on the way back the Lord showed me a property with 39 plus acres and He said “That big.” I said “What am gonna do with 39 acres and a broken husband.” A few months later the Lord healed my husband of incurable nerve damage. Then I passed the property again, and then again weeks later and the song the Lord laid on our hearts at the being of the year came on the radio “That’s What Faith Can Do.” I knew then that was my property. You see all I wanted at the time was a place to build my house, that’s all I believed for. Once again the Lord had more to show me. As my inner healing continued and my relationship with God became more intimate; the next thing revealed was our ministry. We visited another church to go see Dave Roever. He is a disabled Vietnam veteran, and his ministry is to build huge ranches for disabled veterans and help them go to school. He has two ranches in the mid west. The Lord told me in that service that we were to model after him. So on our property we will be making 3-4 bedroom homes for disabled veterans, ones who can take care of themselves. They will need to be approved by the VA to go through their school program. As they go to school they will live on our property rent free. The ministry is bigger then that, you will have to wait and see. Plus we will build the house the Lord showed us when we looking for plans. I know you are probably wondering about the address. I stated earlier that the Lord told me that our address would start with 11. Well, all the times that I was driving by our property the For Sale sign had no flyers in it and the house on the property sits to far back to see the address from the road, plus there is no mailbox out front. I was driving by our property in June of last year and there was a sales flyer, I picked a few up it didn’t dawn on me until I got home and really looked at the flyer an saw the address does indeed start with 11. Glory to God! I know that all of this is going is start this year. God promised and he doesn’t go against his word. We were prophesied over in October and the Lord confirmed verbally to us through the prophets (who we have never met) what He has been telling me in my spirit.

When the clock struck midnight and 2011 began, I felt a nervous excitement bubbling inside of me. This is the year I have been waiting for, for almost 3 years. As Joe, me and our kids had communion on New Years we surrendered this year to the Lord, knowing that this is a year of manifestations. This is a year of great things. I told Joe the other day that I feel like the Lord has been potty training me. I started out in diapers, then as my faith grew I went to training pants, and this year I am putting on big girl panties. How do I know this?

Hebrews 11:1

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen;

it gives assurance about things we cannot see.

Philippians 1:6

And I am certain that God, who began the good work within

you, will continue His work until it is finally finished

on the day when Christ Jesus returns.

Philippians 4:13

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

Galatians 1:10

Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people,

but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not

be Christ’s servant.

I don’t know how the Lord is going to come up with the money to make all this happen. He said it, I believe it, that’s it. He also told me this “Christina, no one believes you, but your faith is going to get you what you want!” My father paid me the greatest compliment a few years back. He told me that I have more faith then anyone he knows. I am glad that he knows that about me. I want to be known as a woman of faith, sold out for Christ.

2011 Here I come!

2010 has come and gone, but not without leaving a permanent stamp on me. I learned that to fulfill my mission here on earth and do what the Lord has called me to do started with obedience to Him. It was not a cake walk, much harder then expected. I figured that when you turned over a new leaf and you start to get closer to an obedient life that it wouldn’t hurt to bad. I was so wrong. I will highlight on a few of my issues that need to handled head on.

I had to learn that boundaries are the way to go in all relationships. I know that it sounds cold and heartless, but that is not at all. What I have learned is that the Lord shows you what boundaries to set and when to set them, and most importantly how. I loved that lesson!

Another thing I learned was that I needed to fall in love with myself from the inside out. I needed to get to know the woman that the Lord had created. It was a challenge to be vulnerable and strip myself all of the pain I was feeling. I needed to let all my self worthlessness go and not hide anymore. I realized how many excuses I was making for why I couldn’t do this or that. This was tough one, many tears were shed and I was frustrated. I have an amazing husband who helped me gain confidence in myself, that I have never had before. I love who I am and I don’t have any complaints any more. That has brought freedom and peace in my life that I have never experienced. Victory for Christina!!! Thank you Jesus for being my friend and for sticking by me when I thought I couldn’t hang on any longer. I am so thankful for you.

The HUGE miracle that happened in 2010 actually happened to my husband, but has changed our family. In the spring my husband was completely healed of severe nerve damage (complex regional pain syndrome) in his legs, due to an accident in 2002. The doctors say that C.R.P.S. is incurable, well guess what; I serve a God who does the impossible and makes them possible. We were ready to go forward with getting his right leg amputated. The Lord not only healed his nerve damage, but he healed Joe’s depression; which was really bad at the time. Then the cherry on the top was that the Lord blessed my husband with an awesome job. Joe was almost bound to a wheelchair, and walking with a cane. Now he is working over 50 hours a week on his feet, plus finishing up school. God is good. He looks out for His kids, and blesses them. He answered our prayers. Thank you Lord!

God has a plan for each one of us. I thought you pray about it and then just do what the Lord has called you to do. I was missing the part in the middle. You need to have the “self” work done before you can walk through the doors. I believe that people quit in the middle of the journey because they don’t want to face the things that Lord has brought into the light, the things we thought we have hidden, even from the Lord. I want to tell you a secret, it is so worth it. Every tear, every frustrated moment, every heart ache is all worth it because the end result is beautiful. Jesus got really personal with me. I learned what the Lord meant when He said that He would never leave me or forsake me. 2010 was a year that I felt like God had a check list of things he wanted Christina Loy to go through and conquer. I succeeded, I did it!!!! The check list of 2010 needed to be done now so that as 2011 comes, I can see all the manifestations that have been promised to me through faith. I will see what I have faith in come true in the way that the Lord has them come true, not the way that Christina wants things to come true. In Proverbs 16:9 it says “We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.” 2011 here I come; I hope you are ready for me!